Learning this way is like giving birth to a huge litter of puppies! Painful pushing and squeezing and then POP! suddenly you have a small squishy, wiggly bundle and you don't even know what you've got until you clean it off and really look at it. A few days later all the "puppies" are running around in different directions and are impossible to keep track of or control. Cute, but maddening!
I don't know why people don't consider being and artist a "real" job. Its certainly hard enough! LOL!